Breakdown

I guess I can say lately I've been feeling preety much just shieet. My one and only lil sister was vommiting yesterday since 3am in the morning and so on. It made me worry so much about her because she is my only lil one and my mum called her work in sick just to take care of work. Then was called in to work on that day and not feeling that high spirit.

Have you ever felt like you had to put up with something for soo long and just now your letting that all out? I'm fed up with it I have to go through all the shieets. It's like I'm always the one trying and trying so hard to the best of my ability and yet you never realize but maybe deep down inside of you.. But you just don't want to admit that to me. Haven't you realize since all that, we've been like this? It's just never feels the same now. I don't know if you ever read my blogs but yeah I feel like I can express it more from here than to you in person which I just can't do. Otherwise all these other stuff will happen which I know it will for sure so I'll leave it that way. You seem to forget your close surroundings especially me and I know there were times when you were there for me but now it's like I tell more things to my other friends then you. Which doesn't feel right? I'm really happy for you because having that person completes your happiness. Can't be bothered to type more cause it's going to make me feel more emotional as I'm typing this now, those tears starts to run down