Happy New Year lovelys!

Well my Nye wasn't that bad I guess cos I spent it with my family and it was filled with heaps of laughter and happiness! We were cruising around Brighton and Double Bay, I found the nicest spot to have a picnic!! But I ended up sleeping after watching the fireworks on Tv hahaha what a joke!I was too tired anyways and I had such a great sleep after a while haha :)

I was just thinking that 2009 was such an amazing eventful year compared to 2010. But of course there were highlights for 2010! I just hope Inshallah 2011 is going to be a great, wonderful year! It's my last year of high school and I must enjoy every minute of being a school kiddo! Hehe :D I don't know what to expect but every year is always a suprise! I can't wait for 2011; graduating high school, formal, turning 18 and many more!!! But all I can say is, BRING IT ON 2011!!!!!

2010

Once again another blog entry about each year! Hmm what can I say about 2010? Well I started off with senior school with subjects that I was interested in and I don't even know why I did Art. That was a joke hahaha! But anyways thanks God I dropped that out!!
But 2010 definately made me become a stronger person and a capable young women. The main highlights of 2010 are appreciation, realisation, determination and being happy.

This year I learnt to appreciate what I've got and being thankful in life. By that I mean I am soo thankful to have a great family especially my parents, I really don't know what I'd do without them honestly. I love them soo much with all my heart and I've realised at the end of the day, it's all about being there for each other no matter what. I can definately say, we're just a one happy family! My parents have supported me throughout the year especially with school and those talks I would have with them about my goals in the future. I don't know how to express it but I am just soo thankful for having such wonderful parents that can understand me! Thank you Mum & Dad, whom I call you's my bestfriends and I love you! :)

Lastly friends are always a main highlight and this year I have made so many good friends! But one thing I learnt is, "Friends come and go". Especially during my 17th birthday BBQ, I realised who actually cared for me and those that came which I never expected, suprised me. But thank you everyone for coming, that day really meant alot to me!!

My most beautiful girl and almost leaning towards 11 years, Anna-Marie Venites <3
I don't think this year we had a fight at all and maybe because we're growing up we're becoming more mature as the years go by. All I can say is thank you soo much for always being there for me no matter what, our friendship is truly unique and never change because you are just one amazing girl!! I've had soo much fun with you this year especially our funny moments hehe :) May ching & chong last forever!!! Hhahaha ;) I love you soo much my bonga, I don't know what I'd do without you! I'll probably be a lostie as usual bwahahaa <3

And for those that I call my "bestfriends" you know who you are. I just want to say thank you soo much!! You all are amazing people and just never ever change! You are one of those that I can always rely on especially during my hardest times. Deep down from my heart, I love you all <3 I just wanted to remind you guys that you's all keep me happy and I thank you for that!

I guess since I'm growing up quickly I start to learn more things about being appreciated in life. I have learnt to be happy from what I have and it's really simple. Being loved by my wonderful family especially my beautiful parents, friends, amazing opportunities, living in Australia and living under a shelter. I am grateful! I can never ask for more and one thing which is truly meaningful to me, is being loved by your family and friends!

And why did I mention realisation? Because I have realised alot this year especially about 'friends'. Friends that actually cares for you when you need them during your hardest times and I'm sick of 'come and go' but that's just life!
I've realised that life is wonderful because it gives you all these amazing opportunities out there. Like what my Dad always tells me as usual "If there's an opportunity out there go for it!" And I included that for my Captain speech because I believe that is soo true! From that experience it determined me to do the best of my ability and I ended up getting Vice-Captain, even though I've always dreamed of getting Captain of the School. But hey there's always a reason behind why I got Vice-Captain and just never give up in life!! We all have the right to make the most of it in life and never be afraid to take risks because if we didn't, we might all regret it. At the end of the day, it's all about trying and being determined in life!

Being happy is soo important to me because it keeps me positive in life and I cannot stress enough about being thankful for having such a wonderful family and friends! I just want to thank Allah for everything and especially for all the opportunities! And for giving me such amazing parents. I've had such a great year!! And thank you to everyone who made it even more amazing and if it wasn't for you, it wouldn't be complete at all <3 May 2011 be a great year Inshallah, because it's our year!! BRING IT ON!!!

For the last time of 2010, love always Claudia xoxo

Young Leaders 2010!

I must say this has been the most inspirational conference I have ever been to and I'm thankful to take this opportunity with me, as I learnt so many valuable things that I will definately take on with me in life. One significant moment I will never forget was the talk from Anh Do! His journey from Vietnam to Australia was so inspiring and it actually gave me the tears because sometimes we all think we're the only one, but really we're not. His one person I can look upto through the hardships. I'd have to say one of the most unforgettable moments in my life.

Busy November!

So it's finally November, a very busy month for me! And I miss you my blogspot, so I decided to do a trial for Fb to not go online during school days and I'm doing fine so far hehe. Year 12 has been good I guess, I just basically need to be on top of everything and not long till I graduate! This month I'll be missing one day of school every week due to conferences & etc, that's why I titled this entry as 'Busy November' hahaha I'm loving my free periods when it's suppose to be a 'study period' hahaha! Anna, Lauren and I have been organising the jerseys and that's been going well too! But that was a stressful work! I've decided to get my nickname as "Mz INDONESSA" Hhahaha I just changed one letter from INDONESIA! Quite lame, but I just wanted 'Nessa' on my back LOL! I've already started to get my first hsc assessment tasks which is quite freaky, but Inshallah I'll get through it. I also got promoted to work at the new Supre store at the brand new Westfield Pitt St mall and my first shift there was heaps good! Closing there is soo much better! I do miss my George St people but I can visit them anytime hehe. I also have a formal to attend and YAY I got my dress already! Sometimes I hate being a girl LOL! These days it makes me think alot how I just want to do soo well for the hsc and try my best! I must say, I'm very lucky and fortunate to have my parents because they have been supporting me and their the ones that keep me positive and not to stress about year 12. At the end of the day, I just want to make them proud and show them that I am determined in everything I do. I believe life is beautiful for me, because there are soo many opportunities for all of us! Sometimes there is a reason why we're here. We're very fortunate to get educated because those kids that are starving would die, just to go to school. But realistically, WE can help them and we have it all in our own hands. I promised myself one day, when I get a really good job in the future, I would love to help those unfortunate kids and help them get education. It's pathetic how people can just throw those opportunities away and waste them. It's that precious because life is precious, and every opportunity is precious. Another lesson I learnt is that you don't need those material things to make you happy, cause for me it's all about me and my family being as one happy family. Because at the end of the day, we're always there together no matter what happens and I'd have to say, I am lucky. But as the days go by, I tend to realize more and I've learnt a few lessons here and there. The weird thing is that you only realize after it's gone and you just never know. You never know what to expect but that's life. I'm sick of running to people and caring about them, because maybe they don't even give a shit about me. But that's just me, I care too much for people and I don't like being ignorant. That's just not me. Sometimes the world is even ignorant and selfish, I hate all the bullshit they should just get over it! I hate it how they discriminate people because of their religion or culture and etc. When is this world going to be equal as one. We're all just a human being and where is the love? I know I'm constantly changing topics but cbf lol, and when are you ever going to change? Like fuck it, GET OVER IT MATE! Wish I could say that to your face! Haha I'm so slack, but it's true! Last of all, there is also that one person who's been there for me throughout the hard times, Anna-Marie Venites. I honestly wouldn't know what to do without you my bonga, your amazing girl and you really are beautiful inside and out. If you are reading this which I doubt it, I bet your thinking 'Eww lesbian' HAHAHAHAHAA! But really Anna, THANK YOU! I love you always and remember I'm here, I have your back no matter what xoxo

Damn that was a long post!! :P

On the subject of new start, tomorrow everything will change. I'm going to start year 12 meaning that I'll be starting the hsc and I really don't know what to expect. I'm scared but excited at the same time, I only have one more year of high school and I know I can do it! I do realize that I will have the responsibility of my studies and my other duty as Vice Captain, it hasn't kicked in yet but maybe soon. Inshallah I hope everything goes well in year 12 and that I'm able to handle everything smoothly. I have decided to deactivate my Facebook soon by end of this month, well firstly I wanted to delete my account but that doesn't exist! But I have this plan that I won't go on Facebook during year 12, but maybe only while the holidays are on but that's if I get all my assessments done! I have heard some of my friends saying "But you won't have a social life?" Well I don't need to have a social life over the internet do I? I rather text, call or whatever even though Facebook can be convenient. It seriously is a distraction so I'll just stay away from that haha! And I will try blog more so I can improve my writing!

But these holidays has been pretty good compared to the other ones since I've been productive I guess haha! Went to gym first week, chillin with friends, working, spending quality time with family and getting sick NOT! But I was hoping to loose my voice hahahaha!

Sometimes I feel like I need to be alone, I just want to go far away to a place that is peaceful.

I guess we all need to be aware to remind ourselves to set a good role model to others and for me especially to my little sister.

On our daily lives, I'm sure we all go through this. We treat others nicely to show that we care for them and in return we are treated like shit! But it makes us wonder should we treat them the same way they have treated us? I have learnt a lesson today, Belief after hardship there is always relief. If we do the good thing and in return we may not get what we want, Inshallah something way beyond better will come to us without knowing or expecting it to occur to us. We just never know.

17TH BIRTHDAY BBQ!

I would love to say thank you so much to everyone that came to my BBQ because it means alot to me and I appreciate it so much! I hope you all enjoyed the day and the yummy food there! Basically it was just a nice relaxing day and catching up with friends! I must say big thank you to my Mum and Dad because they made it happen and it was successful! I love you so much Mum and Dad, thank you! Alhamdulillah it was a great weather!




At the start I was quite disappointed though because many of my good friends told me in the last minute that they couldn't make it to my party and it made me upset because I expected them to be there. Especially for the ones who dogged it honestly, for a stupid unreasonable excuse and that just completely turned me down. But I guess I still learnt something from lesson number one that you realize who actually cares for you and who doesn't. But another positive lesson I learnt today is that I realize who I would hold on to my journey as a life time. Those friends that came today was enough for me as a birthday present, which defines the true term of carring. That's why I truly love you all!



Mum, Dad and Peggy (who always think I leave you out LOL!) It was just so nice and carring to have you's around especially and I wouldn't even ask for more! That's why I thank you's for making this happen successfully Alhamdulillah! I'm so proud and lucky to have you all, I truly do adore you oh so much!



And to my other family members, thank you so much for coming and helpinh importantly! Once again without the big help, it wouldn't be as productive haha! But truly thank you so much!



But Alhamdulillah thank you Allah I had a wonderful day spent with my loved ones! Best 17th birthday ever!! <3

Seventeenth birthday!

I had the best, exciting and the most amazing 17th birthday! Honestly my day was filled with happiness, dreams and wishes coming true on the day. Being 17 in Indo is considered as an official young women just like a sweet sixteen! But the main highlight on my birthday was firstly getting knighted as Vice Captain of RGHS! While getting our blazers exhanged with Chay, my friends in the crowd yelled out "HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLAUDIA!" and in return I yell back "THANK YOU!" Hhahaha I really thought that was lovely and I looked over to my parents who are sitting down in the front.It was a really nice moment to have them there watching over me and at the same time it was my birthday. I really do thank my parents for everything and it's just unreal how 17 years ago I entered this world.It's unbelievable for me because I've always dreamed something like this to happen, to serve my school and make them proud. As I watch Angela and Chay say their farewell speech, it made me realize that I will be in the same boat as them in exactly one year! It's true how we need to make the most of it in high school and while listening to the girls, I started tearing at the same time. Imagine if I had to do a farewell speech! I would literally cry like a freak! No joke haha! But on the day of my birthday I literally spent my time at school with the SRC girls! We then had the Year 12 SRC farewell party which was organised by the lovely year 10's! They did a fantastic job and the decoration was absoutely creative! So I thank you girls for preparing and putting your effort into this. At the same time it was an emotional ride for me, seeing my favourite year 12 girls leaving the school well more like my big sisters to me. But I thank you girls for everything, you have made me proud and I hope to make you girls proud too! During the party, I had my own little ice cream cake with a candle which they all sang me a birthday song! I wouldn't trade to spend my birthday with anyone else but with these lovely ladies! Then after school I went to chill with the usuals at Maccas and it was also my asik's birthday!! Also along with Jake and Jeni! Hahaha it was even Keven Rudd's birthday too LOL! His cool cause we share the same birthday!I had to rush home and get ready for the Year 12's Graduation night since Izzy and I were mc-ing the event. I really do appreciate Izzy's help, without her I would be lost honestly haha! I really can't sit on the stage still for freaking 2 hours! I made a fool of myself because I couldn't pronounce Angela's surname, but hey I made the audience laugh hahaha! But yeah my birthday was also interesting because I learnt my first lesson, there are main two types of people. The good and the bad, the ones that care and the ones that doesn't give a shit. We shouldn't even care for those who don't even slighty care for us or we shouldn't even bother or waste our time for people like that! I'm sick and tired of this repetition, I wish you were just out of my life! I wish I could stuff some cake on your face haha! Anyways to the point, I would love to say thank you to everyone for the birthday wishes and the people that I got to spend my birthday with! Which you made the most of it, I love you all and never change :)

Love always Claudia <3

Alhamdulillah

Allahu akbar you are the greatest! I can't believe this day has happened but I got Vice Captain! Only yesterday I felt like I was in year 7 looking upto the captains and from day 1 this has been my dream. But at the same time I'm upset that Liz didn't get anything because she totally deserved it but at the end of the day, everyone know's who deserved it the most. I realize now that being one of the captains in school is a big responsibility, because every where I go I carry some burden with me and it feels like teachers are watching me too LOL! Maybe times might get rough at the same time when my studies are getting too pressuring, but inshallah there will be some way. I can't wait for the upcoming events and right now I have my yearly exams at the moment which I've been pretty busy lately. Tommorrow we celebrate Eid and then the afternoon I have my Business exam -.- But doesn't matter anyways, I just want to get it done and over! But after the exam period, I'll be very busy with the captain shizz so that's what I'm looking forward too AND my birthday is also coming up too! Hehe can't wait and I already got my first present from my Daddy hehe :) Also congratulations to the stinky Aldo for getting Vice Captain as well at school! Hhahahaa pretty funny that we both hold the same positions at our school in the Randwick "Community" but that's what you call the stinky vibe LOL! Ciaooo I'm off studying for business YAYYY! -.-

Bismillah

MAGIC 11!

Highlight of the day; we girls all ended up getting into the SRC! Hehe :D It's really exciting cause it's going to be our year! So here we come 2011! Bring it on woo! Congratulations to all you lovely girls :)

My sister is currently at the hospital because she got her tonils removed today and it was sad to see her in pain and looking all pale :( But Alhamdulillah the operations went well and it's so quiet at home without her.. I love you Peggy! Stay strong <3 xoxo

One of the best gift I've ever recieved is the love of friendship.

These days we realize even more who our true friends are and no matter what I know Anna always have my back. I know I haven't blogged lately cause I've been busy with school and I've been trying Tumblr out, but I miss blogspot! But anyways as we grow up more you learn the meaning of true friendship. I believe Anna and I demonstrates a good example to the meaning of friendship and one word I would have to say is, 'Unique' We've been through it all for the pass 11 years of our life and she know's me too well. She really know's what my weaknesses are and because of her she keeps my head up high these days to stay positive. If you are reading this Anna, which I think you never go on blogspot haha, what I said to you before is that I really do mean it! I must thank you for everything, for being such a great, good, amazing bestfriend/sister you are to me and you have to remember no one will ever replace you! You are so beautiful from your heart and outside, never change cause I love you!

Love Always Claudia <3

Thoughts in mind

Lately I've been thinking in mind about Australia? Since currently we have that whole political stuff happening right now and how Julia Gillard is now the Prime Minister of Australia. But I would have to say I'm proud of her being the first female Prime Minister of Australia's history. Since the last debate against Canterbury Boys and how the main topic was based on Australian Politics, it really did keep me thinking about it. What if Australia did became a republic country? And yes that would be a whole hassle of turning that around cause it's all about the money in this world today! During our debate we mentioned about how voting is voluntary and if you don't vote here, you get fined which is pretty much a punishment. For example, what if someone needs to go overseas because of an emergency due to family situations or even to deal with work. Well you still can vote, but I mean it's alot of paper work too! And people have other committments and we shouldn't be forced, cause maybe more likely some people here might be interested. Therefore I actually strongly do believe that voting should be all about freedom of choice, there are both positive and negative sides towards it, but it's a good benefit for Australian citizens to vote since they are the "citizens" of this country. The other side is that majority of Australian's don't know how the Parliament and legislation works. It would be interesting to see in the future if 16 years old were allow to vote for elections because we are going to be the leaders of this nation one day.

Debating

So recently we have just finally won our first debate haha! Even though we don't go to the next round and seriously about time we versed a public school lol! Infact it was a really good debate even though it was my first time being 4th speaker. We debated against Canterbury Boys and I can never get over with "hypocriticalness" BWAHAHAAHAHAAA! It was based on Australian Politics and the topic was, "Should voting be voluntary?" I actually enjoyed this topic cause I learnt heaps but overall, debating can be fun and exciting at the same time! I always learn something new which I mostly enjoy about it and I hope to improve more with my public speaking :)

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY DENISE BABY GIRL!!

A night to always remember with the girls and all the yummy Lebo food and the belly dancing to arab music!!

Don’t wait for your ship to come in, swim out to it!

Bring it on Term 3!

I honestly can't believe I only have one more term till I start my HSC. During these Winter holidays, my Dad always reminds me about "Term 3" that it's going to be a very busy term that he really wants me to concentrate and aim higher marks. This is how I see it, by another 2 more months September, is going to be the most busiest term! Alot of things are going on during that time of month and I feel like I'm one step away to my dream. Recently I went to watch the movie "Karate Kid" and their main song was "Never say never" which is actually from Justin Bieber haha! But the lyrics were true despite where I'm going through now, in order to achieve something you need to believe in yourself first. I want that to prove myself when the results are out hopefully. But I will always remember no matter what happens, if it does knock me down then I will not stay on the ground. This term is really important to me so much.. and there is a reason of course. Who know's it might be a journey, especially a learning experience.
My mum then had a talk about me carring too much for people's feelings, which is true actually and I guess that's one of my weaknesses. I think I can be abit too soft. My cousin told me "Don't let anyone step over you" I know I'm strong girl, I can do it! I believe it's really important to think positive in life whether you have ups and downs, cause eventually you'll make it through.

Beautiful day

Thanks God it was a day off for me today on this beautiful day. I love that feeling when it's sunny, bright just basically lovely. But I got to catch up with my stinky Rionaldo and have lunch at Mama's kitchen which was great! The others came along Nigel, Ben, Rashi & Nick and just watched the boys play pool as usual.

This holidays hasn't been like a holiday to me, more like working and realization. I realize what's good for you and what's bad for you simply like that. I learnt to appreciate things more especially your surroundings and I feel very grateful. I just truly want to say I am very very grateful, I feel like the luckiest girl in the world. I have what I want, to be loved by them and in return that goes the same and to take care of them. There's nothing I can ask more. Sometimes it's quite sad to see when your in the same boat, you can't even have a decent conversation with that person even if you put your effort to show them that you still care. But it's more like they love the attention rather than knowing how you are and everything. I find that sad, but it shouldn't affect from the past things but it shows how much you care for people.

Believe

It's all about believing in yourself and yes it does take time to believe in myself, since I easily put myself down. Crying, bragging on about things and etc won't do nothing at all. I'm glad to have such beautiful parents with their great support and their the reason why they keep me motivated. I need to believe in myself in order to achieve my goals and dreams. I agree, believe in yourself first before anything.

Patience

It will eventually come along one day it will..

Promise In The Dark

And it all equals a promise in the dark, so don’t promise me.

Quote;

Whatever the mind can conceive and believe, the mind can achieve.
Dr. Napoleon Hill

All I see are pretty bright butterflies

My dream airlines

MELBOURNE LONG WEEKEND 10!

So I went to Melbourne for the long weekend and I had soo much fun. But to keep it sweet and short, on Saturday went shopping with the girls and Lukman LOL. Sunday was just basically a house warming at a family friends place.
I actually prefer the city life at Melbourne compared to Sydney, Melbourne just has this nice atmosphere there and more laid back. It's more spacious and I love those trams, it's so cool haha! Suprisingly I didn't buy much cos nothing was appealing to me but it doesn't matter anyways, cos I had soo much fun!! The thing that I remembered is that I didn't even have to worry about anything there and honestly I didn't wna leave. I've been having these flashbacks of Sarah and I when we went on this ride at Galactic world which is like a roller coaster and it was crazy!! I remember us screaming as it was like we were giving birth to new born babies haha and the fact that Sarah put her hands out for a hi5, but instead I grabbed her hands LOL! It was such a fun moment and our hair was flying everywhere and all those laughs hahaha! But anyways special thanks to Sarah and Ella for making my time fantabulous haha! :D Would love to go back to Melbourne soon :)

Melbourne here I come!

This made my night for today.

Lucy Liu: you are such a sweet girl claudia - i have never ever ever EVER in my 5 years at rghs seen you being bitchy to any one ever. i hope you get elected to be our school captain because you were born to be it. remember our holiday hourly long phone calls? ahh those were the memories love you girlxxx

Lucy had this status something to do with if you like my status, I'll tell you what I like about you. So I decided to why not haha! Honestly didn't expect this comment and it's just really nice to have someone to say that. It really did make me smile and definately a highlight of my day. Even though a comment like that is sweet and short, it just means alot to me :) Thank you Lucy you made my day xoxo

Everyday is a new lesson

I'm not going to let anyone to take my dream away. As we start to grow up older, we realize who matters the most to us and life in the future. Everything definately starts from scrap no matter where we come from and that is putting our hard effort into the whole action work. Everyone has different beliefs, perspective in life or any other way around. I believe as we are still young, we should really use our time wisely. Have fun being young not in that way as getting drunk and doing silly things, but by being creative and being involved for the better. We are definately the next future generation that is going to lead this world in a productive way. I hate wasting time for a whole lot of bullshit reasons and I can definately go on forever. My dad has told me, 'Once you leave school everything changes, everyone leads to their own path way and you can never go back' Believe it or not, we as young adolescents have so much more to give in the future but right now is the best time to get out there. It's true how they say, work for everything now you want to achieve and when we suceed to it's level, we'll get everything we want and it's really not that hard if you think about it. Let's just say it's a simple process and it will gradually come to you one day. Sometimes we shouldn't be afraid to be outspoken either, If I believe in something I would say it and I start to realize that these days our closed ones may not even agree at all because maybe they've never experienced it before. It's easier for them to say then being in that position. But in some stage in life, we go through all the pain, experiences and we realize even more after. I believe everyday is a new lesson.

Doorway to my dreams

I can never be, until it comes along one day.

Quality not quantity.

Oh clueless!

'Education is the key to sucess'

Already June, more to come, it's coming closer.

It's June already! Can you guys believe it we're already half way down of the year! It's scary at the same but can be exciting as more things are coming in the way. Not long till I start one of my important events of my schooling, HSC!! Each day I wake up I still cannot believe that I am growing up so quick! There are so many things I would love to achieve before I leave high school, so I can look back and see what great things I have done and would tell my future kids the stories haha! I am close to my 'dream' everyday it's getting very close and that is my aim for now besides doing well in school. These days it's pretty much school that is my number 1 focus and I've been getting lectures from my Dad especially but their not bad, their pretty inspirational. I will always remember what my Dad said to me.

Today at school, our src has hosted a 'Star Week' which means we get to wear mufti and dress up as our fave celebrity/character and, Sharmi and I decided to rock up to school by wearing our 'I love Justin' tops to school as they were our work uniform haha! Pretty hilarious though but why not! So the proceeds were going towards the Children's hospital to raise more resources such as machinery, games and etc for the kids. I also got the chance today to audition for the choir group in school and I made it in! Hhaha first real audition wasn't that bad and I actually kind of enjoyed it. Main reason why I wanted to do is because I want to sing haha! But overall I enjoy singing and I don't mind taking my time for that too, since it is another extra curriculum at school :)

The Salvation Army-Red Shield Appeal!

Anna and I decided to volunter for the Red Shield Appeal as we believe it's a great opportunity helping out for the community and I've always wanted to get involved more in the community. So we rocked up to Randwick Townhall, signed in for registration and we were set to go since it was just us two! We were located to Coogee at a specific street to collect donations. We had those cool red bibs hahaha! We got driven there and the first three houses no one answered and finally someone donates! We were cheering haha! There were some nasty moment as in some people can be rude and it felt like a trek today too, as we had to walk up all these stairs to the door. I knocked the door and we were standing there smiling, getting ready to greet them and suddenly a dog starts barking like crazy!! Honestly it sounded like half pig/dog and I full ran for my life, no joke!! So I almost got a heart attack and tramautized by that too when going to the next houses. But overall this was a lovely experience. Got to meet new people, even the people that donated and this lovely lady we met whom we had a great conversation with her. We got free big mac vouchers and our Captain for Salvation Army, Karen who was in charge for our school, gave us an extra voucher. Which we got so geed hahahaa and pigged out afterwards for Maccas like fatties bwahahahaa!
But I strongly disagree with the whole thing about helping out for your specific background or religion. I believe that we live in a modern society and no matter where we come from, race background and religion. We are all equal as human beings and I strongly believe that we should help each other.

Sometimes lifes not fair.

You just can't always jump into a conclusion simple as that.

After all..

Maybe I do in the end I realize what's true inside. Or it may be just me? It may not be the right time to face it but I do hope one day it will. When the timing is right.

I won't let you take my dream away from me.

CONGRATULATIONS NISA!

So today we had our zone meeting that's held on once a term and we went too JJ Cahill who was hosting the meeting for their first time and they did a fantastic job! I believe it was a memorable day! Why? Because congratulations to my lovely Nisa!! She got into State SRC and I feel so proud for her, our school and myself because it's that feeling you've motivated someone to get involved and passing our torch tradition down. So I guess I can say it's an great achievement! So now I am aiming for my goal woo! I guess I never felt like this before in my life, when you want something so bad you gotta work for it to make your dream come true and it's all about determination.

DREAM BELIEVE SUCEED

'He will learn to love her'

Exam Week!

Starting from yesterday my half-yearly exams has officially begun! And guess what five exams down and two to go woo!
So let me explain my thoughts about the first 5 exams.

MONDAY
ENGLISH: Definately nothing to study and yes I am finally getting sick and tired about the so called 'Journey' LOL! I think the English exam was weird overall but for my extended response was pretty lame hahahaha! After English, I wasn't feeling satisfied with this exam though hmm..

COMMUNITY & FAMILY STUDIES: I didn't really study for this one instead I just read my exercise book over and over again and a few sheets that were handed out by the teacher. But the CAFS exam was very basic knowlegde and the problem was that I couldn't define it into an exact term! Hhahahaa and I do regret today that not doing Modern History but hey at least CAFS is helpful not only for my education but also for my own wellbeing and for other individualities.

BUSINESS STUDIES: To be honest I actually enjoyed this exam the most bwahahahaa! Because I studied hard for this than any other subjects and the fact that its my most favourite subject. I feel satisfied with Business and end of the exam I realized the exam was out of 80!! Obviously I want to pass for sure but not just a pass, but a mark way beyond that to pay off the studying and everything hehe.

TUESDAY:
My fourth exam was during the middle so I slept in today for abit and decided to go to school early to study more for Legal. I remembered that I woke up with a dream that is my dream but weird at the same time lol :S I went to the bus stop thinking that the 357 would arrive early, but I ended up waiting for 20 minutes under the shelter while it was raining hard! Cars were driving pass and splashing water at me, so I was all wet haha! Arrived at school went to the library and ended up bumping into Jen which was cool so we could help each other out for Legal :)

SOCIETY & CULTURE: I guess I kinda studied for this exam but there were soo many pages for the exam which was crazy!! One thing I did not study for the cognitive theory shit and I was basically writing down so many bullshit haha! I think it was okay, hey!

LEGAL STUDIES: Out of all the subjects, Legal was the most stressful one for me! But since I had the great help from Josh, I knew what I was doing and all his past exams and notes helped me heaps! Since the questions related to his past exams, so Josh I thank you heaps for your kindness! :D The exam was good, thank God I studied hahahaa if I didn't there goes my marks and I'm trying to make up for it since I failed my first exam -.- which I didn't study at all and I had only 1 mark to pass! But oh well my fault for sure! I can't stop thinking how Josh was reminding me about the 'Effectiveness' regarding to the law reform which was definately ohh soo true! Cos that was my extended response relating to sexual assault and before that I did a draft for my extended response and I memorized the first two pages! During the extended response I went all blank but then it was fine!

So now I'm relieved and relaxed with my first 5 exams that are over and done with! I've just finished studying for Religion exam tommorrow but not too keen on that and lastly Visual Arts which I cbf and YAYYYYY :D I miss my facebook haven't had my baby for a few days haha and I wonder what the password is, since I don't have a clue since the stinky Rionaldo changed it!

Flashblack

Currently I'm having this flashback from last year as I was looking through the photos when I went to my beautiful Bali vacation. I missed those times going to the beach, going out for dinner, swimming, taxi rides, walking and etc. Loved every moment of it! It was simply the best and it's the place where I would love to be there right now!

Lately I've been studying everyday for hours and hours for exams next week. It's been very tired but then end of the day I've had some things done. I seriously cannot wait when my first 5 exams are over which I only have left religion and visual arts but can't wait to freedom and chill haha! :D

Happy Mother's Day

Happy Mother's Day to my beautiful Mum! :)
I believe it is a wonderful day to celebrate for our Mum's because its the time where they have all the attention on this special day for them hehe.
But today was a really nice day to spend quality time with the family. We ended up going to Hurstville for lunch and shopping. Love those funny moments where you can laugh your heads off. It's that feeling where you don't need to worry about anything else, so it was real nice :)
For Mother's Day we got my Mum those sandwich press since she's always wanted one and it was really delightful to see her smiling and happy cos it made me happy.
Mum I thank you for taking such great care of me since I was born. You are the most amazing, wonderful, funny, coolest, inspirational, hard working Mum. You are my hero Mum, I love you and Happy Mother's Day <3

Remember

There is always going to be the good and the bad but never give up your dreams, goals that you want achieve to suceed. If your very passionate about something you are most likely to achieve it and by doing that its all about the action work you put into it, because "Action speaks louder than words." You choose to worry about the other negative, then you are surely going to another completely different pathway. Your dream or goals are right at the end, waiting for you.

Love always Claudia xoxo

Inspirational

One word for today, INSPIRATIONAL.
So today our school got invited to attend the Salvation Army, Red Shield Appeal OASIS and I am so thankful to actually to be a part of this with Monika and along with Mrs Mythes (Dno how to spell her name sorry! lol), a very lovely and wonderful teacher!
I actually didn't know what to except from this talk along with other schools and never realized that there were actually alot of homeless kids here today in our community. I realized how lucky I am today and the parents I have, that is why I am so grateful overall.
By watching all the documentry films and also the song, it has inspired me to actually open my eyes by helping out more in the wider community. (LOL community again hahahaa) But overall we are very fortunate. For example there are some kids since they were in a young age has actually never owned a bed before, been taken away from their parents since they were young and never got in contact by today.
The amazing job from Captain Paul and his wife Robbin Moulds is just delightful and inspirational!
I think its the time where our generation as a society where we live in, needs to start thinking about others not only ourselves. But we live in this one precious earth and we're all in this together! It's all about helping out each other and providing a positive impact for them. Not only them but for our world we're we live in.

APRIL UPDATE!

Okay I'm soo sorry for not blogging just been so busy and not bothered too but a friend of mine reminded me too and I just find it so cute cos they actually care about it haha :)

JINDABYNE WAS AMAZING!! I loved every moment and enjoyed all the fun activities that I never got to experience before. We did canoeing, mountain bike riding (I still can't even ride a bike) hahaha! Initiatives course, high ropes & rock climbing. Every night we would we have a trivia night, random activities, dance night and Jindy market!! The lodge we stayed in was the Milton lodge which is more like the white ass lodge! We had our teacher room right next to our cabin but it was all good I guess. Staying awake with the girls and talking all night, laughing to completely stupid things and going off topic. Overall I would love to go back to Jindabyne a place where it's peaceful and nothing you need to worry.

Since camp, it's been preety hectik and very busy! I had my cousin's wedding which I got to dance for the welcoming bride & groom. I danced with the Melbourne girls and I think we did good even though the music system was off and on, but we still kept going. I did a lil speech for my cousin which I actually left it at home! But I think I did alright aye haha :) I caught my cousins flowers so I'm getting married next bwahaaha nah I'm kidding but I did which is suprising cos since I'm short haha! I met alot of people since then on and made friends especially from Melb and got to know the girls very well and I'll be seeing them hopefully when I go to Melbourne in June! :D

I've been working alot in the holidays and it's back to school soon, need to study!! But that was just a summary so far :)

"Actions speak louder than words."

Pretty much today that most famous quote was stuck in my head for the whole day and since it's also my school's moto. It kept me thinking since we had our Year 11 Study Seminar and I actually enjoyed it. It was basically about getting us prepared for our HSC and how to prioritise, balance our studies with our social life because being happy is the most essential foundation in life. It's true, the key to get through to success is our 'Actions' not words.

Also makes me think how privileged I am to have this opportunity while we're young and make the most of it. Life is too short and you just never know what to expect. It may be full of suprises, shocks and you name it all. It comes down to where you should just enjoy school at the same time even though there are alot going on with school or other than that because I do realize I don't have much time. Really time does fly that quick! It's like by blinking once, I'll be doing my HSC already in Term 4 and Term 1 has almost ended.

But the most exciting events I'm looking forward to school is Harmony Day which I am participating in the Parade of Nations, and I'll be wearing my national costume representing Indonesia. On Sunday I'm off to JINDABYNE which is a 7 hour drive and I'll be alway for 5 days so I think I'll be blogging after my cousin's wedding since there is soo much happening right now! I really can't wait to get away from everything and spend time with the school girls so I guess I can call it 'The Great Escape.'

Borring life

I'd have to admit my life is soo borring right now! It's just school, school, schoool! Getting my assessment tasks done and studying for my business exams which I am aiming to get a really good mark hopefully. But overall I'm actually enjoying the school days :)

Recently 360 was held on the weekend same venue but this year it kinda disappointed me! By the fact that it wasn't that amazing as last year and suprisingly it wasn't packed as last year too! But overall it was really great seeing some faces after a while and seeing them performing too :) I've also been starting to do open shifts on Saturdays now and I actually enjoy it because the goes alot faster! This upcoming Saturday is Eman's 16th party and I'm pumped up for that haha! Just wna partaaaaay! So over schoool and then it's Harmony Day soon then comes along JINDABYNE BABY!! <3

I guess I kinda do have a busy week ahead for me.. But it's going to be all fine! :) You know that feeling when you've tried and tried but it just never seems to work out? Well I give up and I'm preety sure your reading this right now, but we both know we are drifting apart from each other but I don't know why we can't even talk it out to each other. These days it never it feels the same anymore, I'm afraid to of loosing our friendship honestly. There is alot more to say but it probably be the best for me not saying anything as you are going through an 'important' stage in your life right now. But always remember that I'll always be here for you even if we've drifted apart and so on. It kinda is sad sometimes that each day it slowly falls out and it's going no where.

It's okay like everyone says, "Live life to the fullest" And oh my holidays are coming up yayyyyyy :D

Sunday night

Year 11 is starting to really kick in and it's getting very intense! I realized how time management is really important and at the same time trying to keep up with your school work, getting things done in time. I'm trying not to stress about it but at the same time I'm trying to enjoy school too. It's already half way of term 1! I'm looking forward to the events that are coming up soon! I'm going to Jindabyne with my year so that's very exciting and that goes for 4 nights and 5 days! I'm going to have a very busy week cause I'll be back for my cousin's wedding and I have to dance for her wedding as well so I must practice!

Apart from that things are fine but hey can't complain about that! I've tried and tried my best so I think it's time to give up and move along cause it's taking me no where. I've tried already and honestly now I really don't know what to do and I know things hasn't been the same lately. I miss the good old times

Thoughts

So I guess I've been pretty much busy with school which is alright so it keeps me motivated. The subjects I do at school can keep me thinking about our lives today and for example today at Society & Culture class we had this class discussion about Kasey Chamber's song called "Ignorance". Read the lyrics carefully.

Don't wanna read the paper
I don't like bad news
Last night a man got shot
Outside the house of blues
I'd like to ignore it
I'd like to just pretend
That the reason for it
Is something I can comprehend

I don't listen to the radio
Last time it made me cry
Two boys went crazy
Fifteen kids died
And I don't know their families
I don't ask 'em how they're going
They're on the other side of the world
But it's way too close to home

I've got something to say
And I thought it might be worth a
mention
If you're not pissed off at the world
Then you're just not paying attention
And you can turn off the TV
And go about your day
But just 'cos you don't see it
It don't mean its gone away hey

We don't talk to our neighbours
They've got funny coloured skin
We see 'em out on the sidewalk
But we don't invite 'em in
We only eat when we're hungry
And we throw the rest away
While babies in Cambodia
Are starving everyday

We risk our lives
We hit our wives
We act like everything is funny
We hide our pain
While we go insane
We sell our souls for money
We curse our mums
We build our bombs
We make our children cry
We watch the band
While Vietnam
Just watch their children die

I totally agree with Kasey Chamber's lyrics about our society today and it really did got me thinking about it. Let's take it this way, all kids like us these days go to school 5 days a week right? In my opinion I believe we are very lucky to have the opportunity to go to school to get educated and we're much more intelligent than the people back in the old days. I think this opportunity we have is pretty amazing and you may not realize but maybe while we're in class learning, there a kids in the unprivileged countries that are starving to death and this makes me think back from last year while attending the World Vision Conference based on about the 40 hour famine. That experience was an emotional day for me but amazing at the same time how we can help so much and what we have to offer. It makes me realize that by being at school I try to use it wisely because it is definately an amazing opportunity to be in school and getting educated for a good cause even though it can be stressing at times. But think about it, we go to school and do our best, aim high marks and so on. Graduate high school and most of us goes to uni to complete a course and from there on we have our career jobs that equals to sucesss and we can all help out for those unprivileged kids.

As you see I'm typing this and anything can happen in the other side of the world right now and for those who don't have these useful technologies like us, we are indeed very fortunate.

I think it's time for the world to have their acts together and stop all these controvesies and help each other no matter where we come from. We're all just human beings yet with different skin tone, morals and etc. As a world, one planet we're just like a community we are one.

Back to School!

School so far has been good I guess, I really like the idea of walking into class with that happy feeling and just looking forward for each lessons. I'm happy with all my subjects and teachers yayyy! :) Since I'm a senior now we have our green skirt which is exciting hahaha! Feels weird cos there's only 1 year above us and then it's us Year 11's just so use of having more older people around me haha! A quote that I will always remember from our Deputy Principal Mr Raskal, 'Achieve the best to your ability' Yes that's for school but can be for other things to and no matter what always try your best :) So I also really wna do good in school this year but what feels intense at the same time is that we only have 3 terms of Year 11 and it will fly that quick! But bring it on Year 11!


Also a shout out for my lil stinky brother Rionaldo, Happy 16th birthday! Love you man and hope you had a fun day too hehe :) xoxo

Now that your gone

I miss you, I really really miss you and need you in this time of my life. When everything comes together, having that feeling where there's this heavy weight on your shoulder and it's hard to loose that weight of yours. It's always complete when your around but now that your gone I can't do anything about it now..

Breakdown

I guess I can say lately I've been feeling preety much just shieet. My one and only lil sister was vommiting yesterday since 3am in the morning and so on. It made me worry so much about her because she is my only lil one and my mum called her work in sick just to take care of work. Then was called in to work on that day and not feeling that high spirit.

Have you ever felt like you had to put up with something for soo long and just now your letting that all out? I'm fed up with it I have to go through all the shieets. It's like I'm always the one trying and trying so hard to the best of my ability and yet you never realize but maybe deep down inside of you.. But you just don't want to admit that to me. Haven't you realize since all that, we've been like this? It's just never feels the same now. I don't know if you ever read my blogs but yeah I feel like I can express it more from here than to you in person which I just can't do. Otherwise all these other stuff will happen which I know it will for sure so I'll leave it that way. You seem to forget your close surroundings especially me and I know there were times when you were there for me but now it's like I tell more things to my other friends then you. Which doesn't feel right? I'm really happy for you because having that person completes your happiness. Can't be bothered to type more cause it's going to make me feel more emotional as I'm typing this now, those tears starts to run down