Thoughts

So I guess I've been pretty much busy with school which is alright so it keeps me motivated. The subjects I do at school can keep me thinking about our lives today and for example today at Society & Culture class we had this class discussion about Kasey Chamber's song called "Ignorance". Read the lyrics carefully.

Don't wanna read the paper
I don't like bad news
Last night a man got shot
Outside the house of blues
I'd like to ignore it
I'd like to just pretend
That the reason for it
Is something I can comprehend

I don't listen to the radio
Last time it made me cry
Two boys went crazy
Fifteen kids died
And I don't know their families
I don't ask 'em how they're going
They're on the other side of the world
But it's way too close to home

I've got something to say
And I thought it might be worth a
mention
If you're not pissed off at the world
Then you're just not paying attention
And you can turn off the TV
And go about your day
But just 'cos you don't see it
It don't mean its gone away hey

We don't talk to our neighbours
They've got funny coloured skin
We see 'em out on the sidewalk
But we don't invite 'em in
We only eat when we're hungry
And we throw the rest away
While babies in Cambodia
Are starving everyday

We risk our lives
We hit our wives
We act like everything is funny
We hide our pain
While we go insane
We sell our souls for money
We curse our mums
We build our bombs
We make our children cry
We watch the band
While Vietnam
Just watch their children die

I totally agree with Kasey Chamber's lyrics about our society today and it really did got me thinking about it. Let's take it this way, all kids like us these days go to school 5 days a week right? In my opinion I believe we are very lucky to have the opportunity to go to school to get educated and we're much more intelligent than the people back in the old days. I think this opportunity we have is pretty amazing and you may not realize but maybe while we're in class learning, there a kids in the unprivileged countries that are starving to death and this makes me think back from last year while attending the World Vision Conference based on about the 40 hour famine. That experience was an emotional day for me but amazing at the same time how we can help so much and what we have to offer. It makes me realize that by being at school I try to use it wisely because it is definately an amazing opportunity to be in school and getting educated for a good cause even though it can be stressing at times. But think about it, we go to school and do our best, aim high marks and so on. Graduate high school and most of us goes to uni to complete a course and from there on we have our career jobs that equals to sucesss and we can all help out for those unprivileged kids.

As you see I'm typing this and anything can happen in the other side of the world right now and for those who don't have these useful technologies like us, we are indeed very fortunate.

I think it's time for the world to have their acts together and stop all these controvesies and help each other no matter where we come from. We're all just human beings yet with different skin tone, morals and etc. As a world, one planet we're just like a community we are one.

Back to School!

School so far has been good I guess, I really like the idea of walking into class with that happy feeling and just looking forward for each lessons. I'm happy with all my subjects and teachers yayyy! :) Since I'm a senior now we have our green skirt which is exciting hahaha! Feels weird cos there's only 1 year above us and then it's us Year 11's just so use of having more older people around me haha! A quote that I will always remember from our Deputy Principal Mr Raskal, 'Achieve the best to your ability' Yes that's for school but can be for other things to and no matter what always try your best :) So I also really wna do good in school this year but what feels intense at the same time is that we only have 3 terms of Year 11 and it will fly that quick! But bring it on Year 11!


Also a shout out for my lil stinky brother Rionaldo, Happy 16th birthday! Love you man and hope you had a fun day too hehe :) xoxo

Now that your gone

I miss you, I really really miss you and need you in this time of my life. When everything comes together, having that feeling where there's this heavy weight on your shoulder and it's hard to loose that weight of yours. It's always complete when your around but now that your gone I can't do anything about it now..

Breakdown

I guess I can say lately I've been feeling preety much just shieet. My one and only lil sister was vommiting yesterday since 3am in the morning and so on. It made me worry so much about her because she is my only lil one and my mum called her work in sick just to take care of work. Then was called in to work on that day and not feeling that high spirit.

Have you ever felt like you had to put up with something for soo long and just now your letting that all out? I'm fed up with it I have to go through all the shieets. It's like I'm always the one trying and trying so hard to the best of my ability and yet you never realize but maybe deep down inside of you.. But you just don't want to admit that to me. Haven't you realize since all that, we've been like this? It's just never feels the same now. I don't know if you ever read my blogs but yeah I feel like I can express it more from here than to you in person which I just can't do. Otherwise all these other stuff will happen which I know it will for sure so I'll leave it that way. You seem to forget your close surroundings especially me and I know there were times when you were there for me but now it's like I tell more things to my other friends then you. Which doesn't feel right? I'm really happy for you because having that person completes your happiness. Can't be bothered to type more cause it's going to make me feel more emotional as I'm typing this now, those tears starts to run down

Lately

Waking up crying at the same time. Have you ever felt like it was soo real but then again it was just a dream? You know I love having those dreams where you feel like it's going to happen and wishing that your dream is going to come true. I hope it does one day :) But why did this other dream had to occur? I mean I know it's just a dream but you have that feeling where your heart just pours out. Imagine this, you loose your most loved ones that you never expected in a short time. It all happened in a sudden and walking down the street wondering what are you going to do next? All you have were the words you remembered and their wishes you could fulfill. Your responsibility alone is all what you gotta do and you feel like you don't have that motivation to lift you high up. It's you yourself that's gotta keep trying and find your way to your destination. Only thing in life is most importantly thinking positively. Without the thought of thinking positive we won't be able to give ourselves this enthusiatic motivation.

It all makes us wonder why does these things happen when we know that it's not going to work out? You went through all that and makes you wonder, 'Does that even have a meaning?' Why do we all even bother when we keep trying and trying, you see no satisfaction at all. Seriously why do we bother? Sometimes things can really turn you off and you don't really expect it that much. I guess sometimes we feel cut inside but we don't wanna show it, cause then again why bother? You know those words that are said, their just your own words but how can I believe you when you really do mean it. Oh well whatever, It's not like we're taken this too seriously too far but am I really just like another girl to you? Just like those girls out there? But never think that you got dem' already because your game isn't over yet. It all keeps us thinking but keeping it positively, have fun with life, don't take things too serious ya'll :) YAYYYYYY!

Borring Monday!

Firstly I'd have to say my holidays has been BORRING!! Haven't done much and guess what?! I haven't even went to the beach yet! But hopefully this Wednesday I am which I'm really looking forward to seeing my girls and my mates! Hope it's hot too haha! So I guess that's the exciting event that's happening this week. Dusty's 16th birthday is coming up on Saturday and she's having a dinner. Really looking forward to dressing up ahahas! Can't wait to see everyone getting all dressed up. It's going to be a good night :) My cousin Taco Bella is coming back home from Indo next week so I'm preety pumped up to listening to her funny stories and catching up, go school shopping yayy! :D

I think 2010 is going good so far. I remember today while walking to the shops through the fresh air breeze, it's just a good feeling. It's that feeling where you have everything off your chest, smiling alone and having that feeling where your away from everything. Isn't just a nice feeling going through a fresh breeze alone?

I guess I've been watching a couple of movies lately and singing to songs that are established to their own meanings. It really can relate to everyone.

Sometimes we have to let go of things. It was cool when it all started and now the flame has gone. Now it's time to let go, even though your heart is breaking into pieces you still gotta move on. Sometimes it takes long to realize and there's a time where you finally know how it feels like. I'm sorry I wasn't there when you needed me after all the causing of the trouble, it doesn't feel like the same. I'm sorry you had to be like this way, I'm sorry. Sometimes I wish I can take back everything but now we're all living in the present, it be easier to not have known you. I knew what I wanted and I finally made it to my destination but sometimes you feel like something is left behind you and not complete. This is why I hate love, what's the rush getting caught up then it's over? I don't get all excited when somebody brings me flowers or chocolates. I believe for myself that we shouldn't be taken things too seriously, we're all still young and go explore this amazing world, meet new people.
There are those days when I remember every word you said to me, it all just keep spinning in my head but in the end of the day I try to keep forgetting about you
Those are some things I've heard from people experiences and just wanted to share something cause I'm preety sure all you guys out there can relate to this.

One Step A Time

First of all, HELLO 2010!!
I spent NYE with my sister, lil cousin, aunty and uncle who came from Melbourne to celebrate NYE here but it would've been better if my parents came along and my dad was sick but oh well would've been much more worse if he came along.

Anyways the first thing that comes to me is about SCHOOOL!
It's not like I'm going to stress about it, but I have thought about this during the holidays and it does really do kick in since it's the senior year. This year I have so many goals, plans and expectations. Have you ever had that feeling where you want something so bad and you just have to build your way up to your destination? And never stop trying because the only way you would stop is yourself. My mind is pretty much focused to school right now even though it's still 3 weeks away to commencing school. I promise to myself that I'm not going to stress about senior year and I realize the limited time I have during my 2 last years so I have to enjoy it at the same time. I really want to do so good this year and this is the year where all our dreams pretty much comes true. To suceed we have to believe first and that is a very well known famous quote. But sometimes things might come in your way maybe like distractions but hey we all have to go through those obstacles to be able to balance things out. I have a feeling that 2010 is going to fly by soo fast! By term 4 I'm going to be in Year 12 which is scary but a relief at the same time.

I think I can do it if I have my mind set, I shouldn't be saying 'Think' better off hearing, 'I CAN DO IT!' I can go through this, just have to believe myself.

These holidays I've been working alot lately and catching up a few friends of mine and finally today I actually drove for the first time and I loved it! It was heaps fun!! Looking forward to driving more :D