2009!

I've been wanting to make a blog entry about 2009 but just been so busy lately with work! But what can I say about 2009? It has been such an amazing year filled with so many opportunities which was the main highlight of 2009. I guess you never know what you expect from the unexpected haha. But I would love to list my main highlights for 2009:

- Meeting new people
- Indo & Bali Vacation!!
- Global Leadership Convention
- Sydney Regional Representative
- 2009 NSW State SRC Conference: Which we're only allow to participate one time only unless we go for SCAT but no I'll be too old for that! -.-
- Pussycat Dolls Concert
- Anna and I getting into the SRC together!
- Formal
- Graduating Year 10
- Rotary Excellence contribution to the SRC Award: $100 cheque!
- Australian Defence Force 2009 Longtan Leadership and Teamwork Award: $100 cheque!
- New Job: Xmas Casual at Supre: Hoping that I get the job after my 3 months so I'm able to quit Maccas lol!

Looking back makes me think woaaah! I just realized now that I'm building up and up in what I love doing and from there on never stop what you love doing cause these opportunities might come in out of no where! I'd have to say 2009 wasn't a bad drama as last years what I had to deal with but I can't complain beecause we have to all go through this some stage in life. Without this we won't be able to learn our mistakes. Now thinking what I've done and participated I feel satisfied and achieved :) I hope next year can suprise me more and I have so many goals and things I want to acheieve. I'm definately looking forward for 2010, thank you everyone for the lovely moments of 2009, wouldn't be complete and love y'all! xoxo

YEAR 10 2009!

So last week Friday was the last day of Work Experience for us girls and as you may not know, I did my Work Experience at my local Pharmacy. It was a last minute thing and it's definately nothing related to what I wanted to do when I'm older. But overall, Work Experience at the Pharmacy was interesting and learnt so many things during those 9 days. The staff were all friendly except for this lady and thanks god I had Dusty with me haha! I remembered we had an early mark on the last day and we were full celebrating the joy of no more Work Experience! From then I was pretty pumped up for the following week which was mainly because of formal!!



On Tuesday it was Presentation Day and I didn't end going because I was thinking, Why should I go if I'm not getting an award cause usually they would send you a letter to inform you about it. Suddenly last minute, Anna and I decided to go to the RTA and get our L's done before the year ends and yes we finally got our L's!! :D
I'm really looking forward to drive and learn at the same time, but I need an instructor. But while I was at RTA, I get a call from a friend asking me where I am and she told me I'm receiving an award. I said to her, 'Are you sure cause I didn't receive any letter?' But apparently it was one of them suprise awards but fair enough. Couldn't make it cause then I would have to trek it back to home and get changed into uniform then catch 2 buses to get to Randwick and by the time I would get there, I would be so late! I was suprised I got 2 awards this year for Rotary Club Excellent Contribution to the SRC and Australian Defence Force 2009, Long Tan Leadership and Teamwork Award. Hhaha it's all based on 'Leadership' and guess what for those 2 awards, I got $100 cheque for each awards and woo $200 cheque altogether!! But I feel so privileged to receive this special award of the recognition of what I do but makes me think like, 'oO what did I did?' hahaha but anyways yay how awesome! Just then I sent them an email to say thank you and stuff since I didn't go to Presentation Day.



Next following day was FORMAL!! Us girls have been waiting for this for ages and can't believe it already happened so quick! Went to the salon to get my hair done and it took a while! My formal dress I got it designed at Indo and as you see in the pictures it's very traditional with the beautiful Indo material. It explain my personality too I guess and I love it cause it's very elegant, simple and cute and I wanted it to be in that design cause I knew no one would rock up as the same dress as me. Our Year 10 formal was held at Watersedge. It was right next to the darling harbour bridge on the rocks and it has such an amazing view!! But before that we went to Kereni's for pres and we were suppose to go on a hummer but suddenly something happened so we ended up going on a maxi taxi instead haha! Btw I brought Aldo with me the lil stinky one rofl as my partner and evryone there looked so gorgeous and stunning! The food wasn't that bad, the dancing was fun but what sucked the most was that I couldn't even dance properly cause of my heels :( but anyways the music in the beginning was pretty good cause it was like the lastest and it started to go borring in the end because people started to leave. So Aldo and I left abit early, got picked up by my dad and we were so deadset tired and sleepy!! I definately I had a very good night! Thanks to Bahar with the amazing effort and time she spent organising our formal! I realized that I didn't even took pictures with her and the other girls cause you know we're too busy having fun but oh well!

Today was finally our Year 10 Graduation which was pretty exciting too but I was scared to get my results and everything. I guess I did alright but I know I can do way better than that for sure! So for our graduation I was the chairperson which was was all good. Sitting on the stage with our Year Advisor, Principal and Deputy Principal. As my Year Advisor sat next to me she was telling me how we've grown so much and she can't believe we're going to the senior years soon. How she remembered us from Year 5 or 6 then meeting us all in Year 7. Ms Randall has unbelievably been the best Year Advisor ever!! Got graduated and cause there were some people leaving our school just wanted to say a lil something for them. For those who are leaving especially like Lisa she made a huge impact during my high school year cause Anna and I were one of her first friends and we use to sit with each other back then in Year 8. We were so close, so many memories, we were such luvos haha and full into 'Big Bang' rofl! We will definately miss you Lisa Hwang, you are the maddest Korean Chick I've ever met!! Love you!!!

Year 10 has been such a great year and I'm gna miss it for sure but at the same time looking forward to the senior years! That's all for now ciaoo bella! x

VISIT INDONESIA 2009!

Hey guys, I know this is a very late update about my holiday at Indo just haven't had the time and my net has been capped.
But anyways I want to make it sweet and short. I had such an amazing holiday got to see all my family at Indo and at the same time learn more about the culture and adapting into their lifestyle.
I literally went around Indonesia haha! Went to Padang for a week and stayed at my village where I had my Eid celebration there. Guess what I was lucky enough to escape away from the earthquake 3 days before it happened and Alhamdulillah my family is fine there. Went to Bali for 5 days and now I miss it so much just want to go back there and have a mad relaxing time! Jakarta was the place where I stayed the most and went to Bandung for 1 night!
So many great memories I won't forget my time at Indo and I just want to go back there now!

BEFORE INDO!

Today was finally the last day at school term 3 for me, as I'm going to Indo tomorrow. I'll seriously never forget the shortest goodbye for Anna and I. As usual she would be the first who cries, she gets pretty emotional and that leads me to crying like a sook! But really even though I'm only going away for about a month, no matter how distant we are, I feel like as if something a part of me is missing and my heart isn't complete. This amazing friendship we have is just unbelieveable and still going strong for almost 10 years. This girly girl I swear I love her so much with all my heart! What's really sad is that both our birthdays are coming up soon and we're missing each others birthdays out :(
I really wish I can be there for her cause I know how she would feel inside in the end. But Anna if your reading this I want you to smile on your special day okay sayang. Well this is a short blog entry for today and I'll be back to write more as soon as I come back! GOODBYE LOVELYZ <3

Bored on a beautiful day

So it's my last weekend in Australia and it's not going too great, I'm sick :( I have a flu, been couging 24/7, a bit of a hot temperature and lost my voice which I actually been wanting that to happen before. Basically cause I want to experience that while I'm singing and yes it's very hard. I really wanted to go out today but I was forced by my mum to stay home and take a rest.

I had a chat with my Dad about how, 'Life is just too short' I personally think now these days we got to have fun as much as we can and whatever opportunities are out there, go for it! I think nowadays I'm starting to believe in myself like what I've realized. I got into high school and in year 7 on the first day I remember my principal Mrs Emerson saying 'Educating the women of tomorrow' look at us all now, we're growing up too quick! It's scary but exciting things are coming on the way for us Insyallah.

An example; in primary school I've always wanted to a part of the SRC and be the School Captain but it was always the popular kids that would get it. When I settled into year 7, the year 12s gave us a talk and I rememeber before thinking, 'That's it I'm going up for it' though I didn't realize it was an opportunity since we're just all too young to think that way. It was something I've always wanted to do ever since I was in primary. I did it and ever since then on, I kept going up for it because I loved what I was doing and I never stopped even though I would have those negative thoughts about it. I believe I shouldn't be afraid, I guess it is something that I'm passionate about. It may sound corny but why should I keep that all in? I guess I never stopped trying until I get what I want and you will get it eventually if you keep trying. Sometimes I feel like I'm close to my dream, and that dream is to be School Captain to represent my school. Yes I know it may sound very corny, and I do have them negative thoughts about it but I would love to be the School Captain at my school because I believe it's a great opportunity to able to represent your school, the last year I'm going to be in high school, it will be a big challenge to handle your studies for HSC and having the responsibility as Captain and I certainly do love to challenge myself. Also it's a once a life time experience and I know it is early to think about this but since the year 11s had there Captain and Vice Captain elections recently, I actually thought about it since next year is our turn. I know myself that I'm not a fully academic student, but I believe I have potential.

It's just not only that but never give up in everything you do!

Something that just happened not too long ago, I remembered myself saying to him 'No matter what happens to us, I still want us to be friends' He started talking to me and I guess we're just normal which I am happy cause all I want is us to be good friends that's all. So I guess it's a good news, after not talking for a very long time!

Roller coaster

So far this week it has seriously been one of those days where you have your ups and downs. Where do I start?

Dear Anonymous,
I don't know if I have the guts to actually go up to you and talk through about things as we've had our pass together. You probably don't know how I feel at the moment and I do have sympathy for you as I've been through the similar thing as you. But seriously when can you move on? I've moved on but I wish you could really understand me right now? Please forgive me for all the hurtful things I've done to you and believe it or not, this fucking bullshit never ends! Please it's time to move on.

Dear Anonymous,
I care for you but I'm annoyed by the fact how you didn't think about how much of an impact it would make for that one particular person, especially when your close to them. I thought you would really understand how that person would feel. Let them not know by the mouth, let them find it out by itself and I guarantee that would not make a big deal for me. I'm over about it but just remember I won't forget what you did. At the first place you shouldn't get yourself involved in this situation since it isn't your business. At the same time your getting yourself affected by the situation. It happened already, but what can I do now.

Crying won't do anything, sometimes you got to let them all out instead of bottling them inside. I try to stay patient since it's Ramadan the Holy month for us and that is the key to control your heart, feelings and mind. It is very hard to stay positive in life and hoping things will be peaceful.

Now talking about the positive side, I have really good news to the world haha! Anna and I got into the SRC and we did this together! It's an achievement that we did together and especially, I'm so proud of her. It's funny when we had our SRC elections and in the last minute I lost my speech and I actually cried and panicked. But I found it by running up with Anna to our maths class and it was in my teachers drawer! Hahaha! I remember telling Anna, as she was feeling nervous that, 'I know we can do it and we will' and we did!! I'm just so happy about this great achievement we did together. I will never forget her lovely sweet speech and she mentioned about me how she was inspired by my past and present SRC experience and that it would be one of the great memories we shared together in high school if we got into the SRC. We did this! Gosh I love her so much, she's such a lovely girl and she has always been there for me through my ups and downs. Mahal kita <3
This is what you call HECTIK AZN SISTAZ! HAHAHA =D YAYY WE DID IT!!

I just want to say thanks to Allah for giving me and my loved ones the opportunites to positive things that are opened for us and Insyallah helping me get through things smoothly :)

Next week is going to be a busy week, I'm going Indo next week and I can't wait to have a holiday. Especially run away from things but I'll definately miss all my friends!

Miss Universe 2009 Review

On the 23rd of August was the Miss Universe 2009 pageant held at the Bahamas and I believe this year was a disappointing year for me as I've been watching Miss Universe since 2004. It was a back to back victory for Venezuela as they won the crown for the second row again and their sixth crown. I'm really shocked by the fact that no Asian contestants were included in the top 15 and also especially Mexico, Netherlands who were the big favourites. The Asian contestants this year were a strong batch and they're improving every year and I believe a few deserved to be placed, unlike some of the girls in the top 15 which I didn't expect at all.



TOP 15
Albania
Belgium
Sweden
Croatia
Iceland

TOP 10
USA
South Africa
France
Czech Republic
Switzerland

4th Runner-up: Puerto Rico

3rd Runner-up: Australia

2nd Runner-up: Kosovo

1st Runner-up: Dominican Republic

Miss UNIVERSE 2009: VENEZUELA, STEFANIA FERNANDEZ



On my prediction list I got 8/15, even though I heard there might be a top 16 this year but I don't know what happened to that. Most Europeans were in the finals and in the end it was a goodbye to them, except Kosovo the lastest independent country made it to the top 5 which I was very pleased with. Which she looked very stunning on that night and I'm in love with her evening gown! I did say that on Venezuela might pull a suprise on the night and she did. I think she deserved the crown but I was expecting another country to win that night. I'd have to admit that Stefania looked gorgeous on the night and the red lipstick is totally her new signature. She's fresh, very young only 18 and unique.

She was crowned by Dayana Mendoza, Miss Universe 2008 from Venezuela and to be honest I was proud of them, seeing them together that they've achieved this back to back victory. Don't forget about the new crown which symbolizes peace and it was funny how Dayana dropped the crown as she was so ecstatic! haha!


I hope next year is going be a better year and I would like to see more Asians advance to the finals and I would like to see my own country Indonesia win the crown one day.


But anyways congratulations to our new Miss Universe, Stefania and goodluck with your reign!

Miss Universe 2009: My Top 16

16. Guatemala
It's been a while since Guatemala sent a gorgeous girl to the Miss Universe Pageant and I've always kept my eye on Lourdes. She's very elegant and you can never forget her look but I would love to see her placed in the finals.


15. Slovak Republic
From the beginning Denisa was my favourite contestant from the Europeans but I feel there's something missing about her. She's very a gorgeous girl and I think she needs to work more on her body. Her presentation was a satisfactory but she could've done better with her gown selection.


14. Vietnam
Vietnam has sent their strongest delegate after a few years and Vo definitely has the potential to go higher during the finals. She has that supermodel look and a very modern girl. She's very tall and has long legs which makes her noticeable but she did a great job in both sections during the presentation!


13. Philippines
For me I believe Bianca should be placed in the top 16 after a long decade since Philippines was last placed by Miriam. Bianca sure did gave a fantastic performance but I think she could do better with a different gown selection. Her interview was very down to earth but she was very beautiful, radiant and classy during the presentation.


12. Japan
Emiri will definitely crack to the top 16 and I'm glad she didn't try to copy Kurara or Riyo. But she presented herself in a unique way. Her gown in the presentation wasn't really my favourite but she actually did a great job!



11. Venezuela
Stefania wasn't really my favourite from the beginning but she showed her uniqueness compared to the other contestants. What I really love about her is the energy she puts into everything! She did well in the runway and who knows she might be a suprise in the final.


10. France
Chloe is also a very strong contestant this year! She's very elegant and down to earth from her interview section. She looked amazing with her performance while on the catwalk!


9. Indonesia
I'd have to say Zivanna is one of the strongest Asian contestant this year and also one of the best representatives from Indonesia. She has a really good tall height and a nice body which for the first time an Indonesian representative is wearing a 2 piece bikini. She can be fierce or either lovely on the runway.


8. Netherlands
Avalon is absolutely one of the most unique exotic contestants this year! With her Indonesian roots and she was so sweet in her interview. However in her swimsuit presentation, there was a lack of energy on the runway. But I believe she can make it to the top 16 after a long time for the Netherlands.


7. Kosovo
I really do think Kosovo is beginning to become more competitive in the Miss Universe Pageant since their indepedence from last year, and Marigona seems to be a very honest girl with her expections. I loved her in the blue dazzling evening gown during the presentation and she looks gorgeous in either way when her hair is up which makes her look elegant or down.


6. South Africa
Tatum is undeniably the best African contestant this year! She surely was a diva on the catwalk which she reminds me of a Victoria Secret Angel Model and my main favourite was her interview, she's so sweet and a lovely contestant!


4th Runner Up - Mexico
Karla is a very gorgeous Latina! She did very well at the presentation and I'm sure she will get into the finals. I really love her smile which makes her shine the most! She was very beautiful during her interview section!


3nd Runner Up - USA
She is definitely everyone's favourite and not only because of her sash factor, but Kristen did a great job and she deserves to be Miss USA which she proved that. If she enters the top 5, I'm pretty sure she will nail the interview section.


2rd Runner Up - Dominican Republic
Who can not forget this girl? Ada is simply fierce! She has more experience from her past back then when she was Miss World Dominican Republic and she was a semi finalist because she won Miss World Beach Beauty and I'm pretty sure she will advance to the finals! Ada really reminds me of the current Miss Universe, Dayana Mendoza in her interview and shes simply beautiful! With her amazing fierce catwalk skills and has one of the best bodies in the competition!


1st Runner Up - Puerto Rico
After 2 years Puerto Rico not spotted as a semi finalist, Mayra can surely get a spot in the finals as she is every one's favourite in the competition. She is one of the best in the runway and as always Puerto Ricans are always fierce and prepared for the competition!


Miss Universe 2009 - Australia
I believe Rachael can win the third crown for Australia and as she is also Mr Trump's favourite as well in the competition. She reminds me of Jennifer Hawkin's performance back then and she was perfect in her interview, swimsuit and evening gown section. She is a very fresh natural beauty looking girl!

What a week has it been.

These days has been pretty much 'school' for me as it's been quite stressing for me, especially going through that phase selecting year 11 subjects for next year and yes I would love to do a communications course when I leave high school, but I'm not to sure which field though. To be honest I've been constantly crying for the past few days because these are the times when we make serious decisions for our life and I never knew it would be this hard. There's no use of crying because it won't do anything, action speaks louder than words.

Sometimes people can let you down for what you want to do for your career and I went to seek advice from my careers advisor. I swear she made me feel dumb when she doesn't even know who I am since this was an actual real conversation I've had with her. Basically all she was trying to say that I can't do this communications course because I don't have the qualifications. It really shocked me when she asked me 'Are your parents willing to pay you $16 000?' for college if I don't get to university straight away and I replied to her by saying, 'Yes Ms my parents are willing to pay me that much no matter how much it is, because they're supporting me all the way' She made me sound like as if I can't afford this but maybe cause I'm Asian as well. I've never went through this experience which really shocked me, but in the end it made me stronger. By having the support from my amazing parents and I'm not going to let someone take over me for what I want to do for my career. I want to show her that I can be something, in fact I want to show her that she will never imagine from me. I love my parents so much from the bottom of my heart and they are always supporting me in everything I do. The reason why I would love to go to university is because this would be the best gift for my parents and that's all they ask for. Also for myself because I know I've achieved one of my goals and also being a role model to my sister which I want her to follow as well. Since the complications my parents went through, this would be my greatest gift for them from heart.

For these past few days, I've been having black outs either from the mornings or afternoon and it's that feeling where your body feels so loose and you suddenly fall down. It's really scary me but I've been eating properly and having enough liquid. The doctor says I have a low blood pressure and I need to take blood test soon. Which I am not looking forward to, since I've just had one yesterday.

The good news is that I've finally got work experience which I am very relieved about and I'm doing work experience at my local pharmacy which is pretty cool cause I can just walk there which takes three minutes and if I had lunch breaks walk back to home to eat. How smart ayee :P haha! I'm looking forward to that as well and I'm hoping I could get a casual job there as well by end of the year.

Ramadan starts tomorrow which our brothers and sisters are fasting and I'm looking forward which I hope Insyallah there are positive changes during Ramadan for me and more good luck I guess but I don't know what to expect. Starting from today another one more month, I'll be turning sixteen at Indo which I really can't wait to celebrate it with my family there and what is also heaps exciting is that the Eid celebration is on my birthday which is so awesome! I'm really looking forward to the fun world hehe :)

2009 State SRC Conference!

Support, Respect, Connect



Tuesday:
I woke up at 5am and got ready to leave home to head off to Hornsby which all the metro people had to be there by 8am. So my Dad trained it with me from Green square then stopped at Central then to finally Hornsby. As we were on our way to there, I didn't know what to expect. As we got there, we all had to meet at the Hornsby bus station and as I was walking there, I wasn't too sure if I was going to the right bus stop haha! Saw these lovely girls that greeted me and my dad had to leave straight to work. I hugged him and got a bit emotional first as I said 'I love you Dad' Waiting there for everyone to get there in the cold which was freezing asss! We left around 8:30 and got there late for the opening and I remembered while we were on our way to Vision Valley, Arcadia I started to tear while listening to my iPod, looking out of the window just thinking about my family as I've never been this far from them before. We arrived at Vision Valley by starting with the Acknowledgement of Country and the National Anthem. We played this game where we all had to throw our shoes to the middle and anyone can take some random shoe and you had to find that person with their shoe by introducing yourself. Which I met so many people with lovely smiles. Basically on Tuesday it was presentations and I got into my colour group which I was in blue. My colour leaders were Millie and Hayley they were so fun to be with. Blue all the way! We all got our warm fuzzie envelopes which anyone can write fuzzies to and by Friday morning we'll take it home with us. I remember on that first day was kind of emotional for me because I was missing my family so much and my friends already! To be honest on that day I was feeling a bit ergh like that feeling I just wanted to go back home with my family but this opportunity I had, only happens once a life time. So I headed off to my room to put my entire luggage there and hoping that I meet my room mates. I came in with such beautiful smiles on their face Caitlin, Casey and Raynor. I wasn't use of sleeping alone without my sister and as the lady who was our supervisor passed our room, would come in and be like 'Lights out girls'



Wednesday:
Woke up around 7am to get ready for breakfast and this day we all had to attend workshops from our own choice. For session 1 I decided to attend 'Make a difference with positive connections' which was a valuable lesson about making positive connections within our surroundings. Session 2 I attended the workshop 'Day For Change - How small change can make a big difference' which is hosted by UNICEF and throughout the workshop made me thought about how my school haven't hosted an event for UNICEF and it would be great because it's for a very good cause to help other kids from the developing countries and by there, our school can make a difference for them but not just only that, our school is making a positive difference by connecting and supporting each other :) Then later we got to do a physical activity which I chose Touch Footy and I don't know why I picked that haha! It got boring cause the guys were full playing it, so then I went to play a bit of Soccer. I remember calling my mum or dad each day just to check if their fine and when my mum picked up the phone, she would start to cry and I would end up crying a bit as well, since my mum is in a sick condition I would always worry about her. She would always be telling me not to worry about her and go have fun. But I knew my mum and dad was supporting me and wanted me to worry about my mum that time, cause she understood where I was coming from. Also that day we had a few of our regional meetings to prepare for the forum which was intense. Later at the night, we had Drum Beats and it was so much fun!! Everyone enjoying it and the beats were fantastic! We then had a Trivia competition and everyone just basically went crazy but I remember myself feeling all sleepy because I was too tired haha! Bed time :)



Thursday:
The usual morning and had our last regional meeting and more other workshops like 'Rising Generations' which was heaps fun as well! Then I walked into some random room for this other workshop 'Boys, Girls and Student Leadership: researching the issues at your school' which was pretty interesting though but it didn't really affect my school since I go to an all girl school. It was interesting to hear about the other schools how it concerned them. We had our forum and it was intense as well! Out of 9 regions only 4 motions went passed like woaah! Next for the fun bit, we had our photo session and we took all these mad photos! Then comes the best night, our dance party ‘The Roaring Twenties’ Everyone getting dressed up and enjoying themselves which was great to see! Gosh that was a tiring night, dancing for hours in heels but at the same time one of the best nights!

Friday:
The Friday morning wasn’t what I called the ‘Usual Morning’ this was the day when we all had to leave. I just couldn't believe the journey had to end, as we had our closing of the conference everyone started to cry and I still couldn't believe this was actually happening. Everyone saying their goodbyes and the tears running down.



I swear we were all like a one big family and it’s the spirit that I admired the most. I will surely miss the friendship I’ve made there, the ‘Shibang-a-bang’ and ‘Fair dinkum’ the laughter’s, joking around, the random claps and everything! Met amazing lovely people that I gotten to know more during those 4 days and I love you guys even if I didn't get to catch up with some of yous. I must say this was one of the best experiences in my life and I have learnt so many things from there not only for my school but for myself as well. Where ever I go I will always remember the good times we all had and I thank you guys for all the memories <3

Fun Weekend!

I must say this weekend was so memorable! Although different emotions going through from laughing hard then to heart breaking.

Anna and I went to Amanda's 18th party at the cities and it was so cute seeing our brother Michael and Amanda together! I swear I couldn't stop smiling at them! Firstly, we hit up to karaoke at Live and stayed there for an hour which was heaps fun and funny at the same time! We were going to watch G.I Joe but then the others were broke and some of us wasn't bothered so we decided to hang out at Darling Harbour. We sat at the grass area and watched Michael's friends krump, jerk and etc. There was this little boy and I swear he owned them haha! We all forced Michael to join them and then he told us to come jerk with him! But overall it was a fun day! After Anna and I left and we were craving our favourite, the puffs with ferrero rocher ice cream! We finally found the glasses we've been looking which we call them 'Jerky glasses' haha! The party wasn't over for us, because Anna was sleeping over at mine and for the whole night we couldn't stop laughing our heads off about something! We had an awesome dnm and eating Gobstoppers the whole night haha!

I never thought I would experience something heart breaking right front of me. Imagine you saw someone you were with once before, and he was with this other girl holding hands. That feeling, just brought all the memories back. I started to shake and freak out but why should I even care when I've moved on. I know it was the past but I wondered to myself, 'Why didn't you have time for me?' After those days where I use to wait for you an hour and a half, and him not knowing till this day. I also question to myself, 'What was actually our ending chapter between us? Were you bored with me? Were the words you said to me was actually true from your heart or were you just a bullshit talker?' You know what, thanks God I didn't fall for you too hard but I thank you for the days you made me smiled and those times when I needed someone to talk too. I miss those days when you called me at night, laughing and joking around. Why is it so hard to find a decent guy these days? It's not that I'm desperate, but I'm just saying after all the complicating things I went through and it just never goes right. Actually to tell you the truth I've had enough of this! At the moment in my life what's so important right now is my lovely family, close friends and my studies which I'm very committed too.

Two more days till I'm off to the conference and I'm almost done with the packing. I think this will be my last blog entry before I leave and I'll be back for the weekend. I'll surely do miss my family and friends. I hope I have a good sleep there haha!

Busy Week!

I've realized for this past week, I've been waking up late and catching the latest bus to school. I've also haven't been having enough sleep as well since I'm trying to finish all my school work and etc. As you know, it was 'Genes for Jeans Day' today and I just wore jeans of course, a white polo top and one of them jackets which I call 'Motorbike Jackets' haha!

I had the usual subjects, collected the donations for 'Jeans for Genes Day' which went successful. It's a funny thing because my sister Anna and I were both struggling with our assignments, because she is more creative than me. I told her to give me a hand with my theatre drawing, since she is in love with art. So I did abit of her history assignment about Gough Whitlam which she has been struggling with the information and since I like to do some researching than drawing, why not give her a hand. We totally have different interests, she loves to dance and I love to sing. I wonder to myself sometimes what am I actually going to be when I'm older? Even though I'm interested of doing a communications course after I leave high school but then again, you just never know. A quote that I have lived by since I was young 'Anything is Possible' Yes it's so true!

Isn't it such a beautiful thing when people give you warm smiles because in a way I can feel that inside my heart. No matter if they are randoms, or just girls walking past me at school or my little sister's friends. I do believe smiling is a very healthy thing and I think it can also make a difference, just one smile will make the other smile :)

But I swear today was a very tiring day for me, I couldn't stop yawning non-stop and slept through the last period of Geography. Soon I have work which I really don't know what to expect after not working for 2 weeks and I finish at 11pm then the next day Muslim School at 9am, then around after 12pm Anna and I are heading off to Amanda's 18th Party at the cities and we also can't wait to see our brother Michael! My life is pretty busy at the moment and I really do need to catch up with sleep before I leave to the conference.

First Blog Entry

I decided to make a new blog after reading my friend's sister Stephanie, and by reading a few of her blogs has inspired me through her experiences. It kept me thinking about my future plans as I am slowly growing up and it is scary. But it seems now I have to be more serious about life and can I say, May God bless her and Wennie you are lucky to have her as a sister. It also had encouraged me to make a blog so I can share my experiences to the world, I know I may sound like a looser but I want to express my feelings in a way so I feel satisfied. I also thought if I start a blog that could help me improve more of my writing as my English teacher said, so please bere with me.

So lately pretty much, I've been really busy with school trying to finish all my assignments off and school work before I attend the State SRC Conference which is in 4 days. For this past week I've been constantly worrying about the presentation report for our Sydney Region, since the conference doesn't start too long. But thankfully just today my friend Meherun and I did the best we could with the report. So for the last hours I've been feeling very relieved about it and also finishing all my assignments and school work. I'm getting more excited for the conference which is held at Vision Valley, Arcadia. So that means yes I do miss out school for 3 night and 4 days, which I will have to catch up with alot of work after the following week. It's my second camp ever since year six and I can't imagine myself sleeping without my family and especially my little sister beside me. In my year six camp it was only a 1 night sleep without the family, and the next today would be like 'Hello again' But Insyallah I hope things go fine. Tomorrow at school for the first time, the SRC is holding up 'Jeans for Genes Day' and which is also our last mufti day of the year. I'm really looking forward to that and maybe it would be the last thing the SRC would do something together for this year.

I should seriously sleep now and I've got work as well which I haven't worked for almost 2 weeks. I'm not looking forward to it because it's so borring these days and changed since we got a new store manager, who I haven't worked with. I've been considering to quit McDonald's once I get back from Indo and apply for another job. Well that's if I get accepted hopefully and plus I've worked there for more than a year already so I've had enough of working with food haha!